“Knowing I could decide who lived and who died like my hero, God,” it read.
And the author of the document also wrote: “Having being responsible for creating three lives, wasn’t I entitled to take just one? But who?”
The document, entitled Killing Darci, detailing the rape and killing of a young American woman, was found on a hard drive in Mr Dwyer’s home, his trial heard.
The accused, a father-of-three, sat with his head in his hands while the chief prosecutor read out the document, which was saved as 4Darci.doc in a folder called DD, found in another folder called Sub.
The jury heard the evidence yesterday on the 31st day of the architect’s murder trial at the Central Criminal Court.
After a short break, Mr Justice Tony Hunt had warned jurors what they were about to hear would be difficult, adding they might have noticed the audience was smaller than before the break.
Det Garda Brid Wallace then entered the witness box and explained that the document she found had been created on March 2, 2011, with a total editing time of 89 minutes.
Mr Dwyer, aged 42, is charged with murdering Dubliner Elaine O’Hara at Killakee, Rathfarnham, Dublin, on August 22, 2012.
Cork-born Mr Dwyer of Kerrymount Close, Foxrock in Dublin, has pleaded not guilty to murdering the 36-year-old childcare worker on that date.
Seán Guerin, prosecuting, read out the document, written in the first person.
The author wrote about a teenage fantasy about killing.
“Knowing I could decide who lived and who died like my hero, God.” The author said that his addiction had grown, that he soon met willing girls and that he had acquired “two fine subs over the years”.
“I always managed to win them over,” he wrote.
He spoke of the time he first considered “crossing the line” and knowing it was in him.
He said he considered taking the life of a stranger, a video clip he would watch again into old age.
“Having being responsible for creating three lives, wasn’t I entitled to take just one? But who?” he asked.
He wrote that he considered finding someone suicidal or terminally ill, and noted that there were 400 to 500 suicides a year in a small country of 4m people.
He then wrote of coming into contact with someone he first knew as Cassie.
“She ticked all the boxes: beautiful, young smart,” he continued.
“Critically she wanted to die... a rare marriage indeed.”
He said they worked out the details of how she would die by his hand.
He said that he had been posting her a few hundred dollars at a time so she could settle her debt. He said she had enough for a bus to Boston and a ticket to Dublin.
He said that she knew her departure would cause pain among her family, but that this would fade in time and would be only a fraction of her pain.
He said she came to him with just hand luggage, no phone and no wallet. She wore the necklace he had sent her, a chain that would soon be his again.
He said she was grateful for what he was about to do. She gazed at the beautiful green scenery as he drove her to a cabin where she had her last meal and last drink.
“She knew she wouldn’t see another sunset,” he wrote.
He said that they were nervous and that he gave her every opportunity to turn around.
She then tested the sharpness of his knife and posted her suicide video. He said that he was planning to take her belongings to a popular suicide spot.
He said that she turned on her iPod, which was loaded with a carefully-chosen play list. He said that she was turned away from him as he was preparing.
“She did not need to see the shovel or bags of lime,” he said.
He said he stroked her tears away before he put on his mask and gloves.
“She knew He was watching… to take her home to see her gran and old dog,” he wrote.
“He did nothing to stop events here and who wouldn’t have wanted such a pretty angel by his side?”
He also said she would be watching over him after he killed her.
He then described raping and stabbing her repeatedly and slitting her throat while the cameras were rolling.
He also described having sexual relations with her corpse.
He said that he took his last photographs of her before soaking her body in bleach.
“She would have been proud,” he said.
He said he then wrapped her body and put it in his car. He said it was a short drive to the spot he had chosen for her grave, a place he would visit “and ask forgiveness for what I had done”.
The author finished with the words: “The End”.
The trial heard on Tuesday from an American woman called Darci Day, who testified that she had met Graham Dwyer on an adult website. She had used the name Cassie when visiting such sites.
She said she had struggled with depression and was suicidal, and noted that she had lost both her grandmother and childhood dog.
She said that she and the accused had discussed him ending her life.
The DD folder on the hard drive also contained an animated-type video of a female having her throat cut and an image of a blonde woman, who appeared to be stabbed.
A detective said she also found a folder entitled EH, which included a document called Diet.doc authored by Elaine O’Hara.
Judge: Don’t tweet in jury’s absence
The judge in the Graham Dwyer trial has warned people attending the proceedings not to tweet anything said in the absence of the jury.
Mr Justice Tony Hunt gave the warning yesterday telling members of the public there were restrictions on reporting matters discussed while a jury was not present. He explained such discussions could not be reported until a trial was over and for a good reason.
His comments followed the tweeting of material by a member of the public on Tuesday. The judge said he accepted the tweeter had been unfamiliar with the rules, but warned “someone was going to spend some time in jail for contempt” the next time it happened.
Although the jury was not in court when he gave this warning, he asked that it be reported. Both the prosecution and defence consented.
Yesterday, crime and policing analyst Sarah Skedd told about the last communications between two phones found in a reservoir during the investigation into Elaine O’Hara’s death.
The phone referred to as the Master phone sent a text message to the phone referred to as the Slave phone on August 22, 2012, using a cell site at Shankill. Sent at 6pm, it read: “Go down to shore and wait”.
She said there was nothing to contradict the suggestion the same person was using Mr Dwyer’s work phone as was using the so-called Master phone on other dates. She did a comparison between the usage of the work mobile and the so-called Master phone, one of two Nokia mobiles that was found in Vartry Reservoir in 2013.
The court had already heard that each phone had only the number of the other phone saved in its contacts; these were MSTER and SLV, which the prosecution refers to as Master and Slave.
Seán Guerin SC, prosecuting, asked if she found anything to contradict the suggestion the same person was using both phones.
“No. I didn’t find anything that I thought contradicted that,” she replied.
Ms Skedd explained that, given both phones used different networks, she wouldn’t have expected them to use exactly the same cell sites.
She said that on the morning of December 21, 2011, Mr Dwyer’s work phone used a cell site at ESB headquarters on Fitzwilliam St in Dublin, near where he worked. The Master phone used a cell site known as Fitzwilliam the same morning.
The Master phone used a cell site at Howth Harbour at 12.50pm that day. Mr Dwyer’s work phone used a cell at Howth Yacht Club five minutes later.