Patrick Bamford has opted to end his "terrible" loan stint at Crystal Palace and return to Chelsea after missing a gilt-edged chance in the goalless draw with Swansea.
The 22-year-old striker was quoted as saying he had asked to return to Stamford Bridge, ahead of seeking another loan move in January.
Bamford blasted a point-blank effort straight at grateful Swansea goalkeeper Lukasz Fabianski when he should have buried the winning goal at Selhurst Park.
"That was my last game for Palace," Bamford said on the BBC Sport website.
"If I were being honest, it has been terrible. No one wants to sit on the bench and not play.
"It was my decision. The gaffer hasn't actually spoken to me."
Bamford's goalless nine-game stint with the Eagles now looks at an end, despite manager Alan Pardew insisting Palace had yet to talk to Chelsea about the player's future.
"Strikers will always tell you they need five games," said Pardew of Bamford's form.
"Managers ain't got time for five games. You've got to come in and do it.
"But that chance was normally one he would take.
"Patrick nine times out of 10 would have buried that and we'd have got three points. But I can't be disappointed.
"Maybe he just needs that goal to give him that spark that strikers need."
When asked if Chelsea would recall Bamford in January, Pardew added: "I think it's a conversation we'll have to have with Chelsea for sure, but we haven't had it yet."
Eagles boss Pardew branded referee Neil Swarbrick's booking of Yohan Cabaye as a "terrible decision".
Midfielder Cabaye will now miss Palace's home Premier League clash with Chelsea on Sunday, owing to his fifth yellow card of the campaign.
Pardew admitted he hopes missing strikers Dwight Gayle, Bakary Sakho and Conor Wickham can quickly find fitness, to boost his side's stretched resources.
"I thought it was a terrible decision by the referee to book him (Cabaye)," he added.
"Swansea got their shape very, very quickly and the game never really opened up.
"But we've got 31 points after 18 games: wow. That's fantastic for us.
"Now we've got to hope some of our strikers come back to us.
"You could tell it was our second game in three days. We lacked a bit of imagination and flair.
"The discipline was spot on, but that little spark, that little edge, we didn't have that today.
"We'll certainly miss Yohan (Cabaye) against Chelsea, because he's a great player for us. So we'll have to manage without him."
Swansea's caretaker boss Alan Curtis admitted he has still not had any direction from club chiefs over a long-term replacement for former manager Garry Monk.
Swansea have now accrued two draws, a win and a defeat from Curtis' temporary stint, and the man currently in the hot seat expects to be in the dugout for Saturday's trip to Manchester United.
"Nobody's said anything to me, we're just carrying on as normal," said Curtis of the club's ongoing managerial search.
"And now we're just looking towards next weekend.
"The club are in the process of I think interviewing people, or certainly looking at potential candidates.
"There is a need to sign somebody slightly different.
"We've always brought the same type of manager in, but I think probably what we need now is just a different voice, someone just to tweak it with a couple of different ideas.
"If I can buy the club a bit of time with some results, then great.
"You'd like to think the club would like to bring someone in sooner rather than later."