This will come down to granules of composure

I loved the big-day experience, but the perception the players had of me, the outward image I may have projected, wasn’t always accurate. Saturday was always torture, the fishing rod would be dusted off or three riveting frames of snooker played. I often struggled to sleep well that night.
Around the house the following morning, I’d be broken up with nerves and anxiety. I couldn’t wait to feel the holy water being thrown over me and the comforting last parting words of my mother: ‘don’t show the white feather’.