Hollywood's favourite upbeat funnygirl, Goldie Hawn, has revealed the smiles she's famous for were just a front for severe depression that marred her early career.
In her upcoming autobiography A Lotus in the Mud, the Private Benjamin star, who became famous as a giggling regular on comedy show Rowan & Martin's Laugh-In, explains she was miserable while making her big break in Hollywood.
She says: "During that period I went into a period of depression, a fear and anxiety and non-specific anxiety attacks… I lost my smile. I had to force it."
Hawn reveals her depression was at its worst when she film Cactus Flower with Ingrid Bergman and Walter Matthau in the late 1960s, and started a nine-year-long stint of psychoanalysis.
She puts it down to the fact she was desperately homesick for family and friends in Washington.
She adds: "I was afraid. I left everything I knew, I left every friend that I had made, I was away from my family. I was in Los Angeles, California. I'm a family girl… I just lost it."