A mother on trial, charged with unlawfully killing her daughter by giving her too much sedative, yesterday spoke of the moments leading up to her child’s death.
“Everything went quiet and her little lips went blue on her little face,” she said. “I just took her up in my arms and I just held her and it was just so quiet. I knew she wasn’t breathing. I said: ‘Em, please don’t go’.
“I fixed her hair and I put her Padre Pio medals beside her,” she said.
Bernadette Scully is charged with unlawfully killing 11-year-old Emily Barut at their home at Emvale, Bachelor’s Walk, Tullamore by an act of gross negligence involving the administration of an excessive quantity of chloral hydrate on Saturday, September 15, 2012.
The 58-year-old Offaly GP pleaded not guilty and is on trial at the Central Criminal Court.
Ms Scully said Emily went to sleep around 9pm on a Friday and she later went to sleep in the bed beside her.
“She woke at 2, upset, crying. It was building up to a crescendo. I got her in beside me, massaged her, walked around a bit with her… she liked to have her head in my chest.”
She said she couldn’t settle her, and she was beginning to cry louder and louder. “I said I’d have to help her rest.” She didn’t want to give chloral hydrate, which she kept for emergencies, without having tried other things. Ms Scully said she gave it to her at that stage and Emily fell asleep.
She explained she gave Emily a 10ml syringeful, holding one up in the witness box. “I didn’t sleep after that. I cried. I just felt so sorry for the poor little thing,” she said. “It was hard to sleep when she’d be in beside you but she just needed warmth.”
Emily was whimpering in her sleep and woke and again around 6, and was really upset. “She was sort of stiffening a little as well. You might have said she was fitting at the same time. She was crying and distressed.”
On that night the cry was like that of a baby with colic, who couldn’t be consoled.
She said she did all the ordinary things again to try to comfort her. “Ordinary things didn’t do anything for Emily. They wouldn’t stop it. The consultants couldn’t stop it,” she said. “I gave her some more chloral hydrate. I think it was about 7ml.”
Ms Scully said she herself had been crying. “I wasn’t able to help her. I could cure everybody else and I couldn’t help Emily,” the GP said.
She said that some time after 11am, Emily started to cry loudly again and she had again tried to comfort her. “It was just relentless. You’d have a pain in your brain. I was so tired, I thought, what else can I do?
“She let out a really odd shout out of her. Her little body arched back. She really started to stiffen and jerk. The bed was shaking. That wasn’t normal for Emily.”
The accused said she was subconsciously ticking off all the medicines she couldn’t give her because she couldn’t tolerate them. She said she remembered what a consultant had said about chloral hydrate being an anticonvulsive, as well as a sedative.
“It wasn’t a normal fit. It just wasn’t and it wasn’t stopping. Her little face was contorted. I didn’t know what was going on.”
She said she would usually have someone with her when giving chloral hydrate but her partner had gone to her nephew’s memorial service. “I took the bottle with me and I gave her 10ml and waited a few minutes. The seizure continued all the time. You’d think it’s an eternity.”
She said the medicine didn’t change it. “That’s what really panicked me. After a few minutes, when it was still going, I gave her some more.” She said she thought she gave 5 ml at that stage.
She said they had always been together. “She was part of me. We went everywhere together. She was the little baby I always wanted,” she said. “I knew what resuscitation was about and Dr Sheridan had said to me years ago about Emily not being for resuscitation,” she said. “Her life was miserable at times but we did have some lovely times.”
She said that when her daughter was gone, she told her she was coming with her.
“Something just happened in my head. I could not let Emily go somewhere else and suffer somewhere else without me being with her to help her,” she said, describing two failed suicide attempts after Emily’s death.
Tara Burns SC this morning continues cross-examination before Judge Patrick McCarthy and a jury of seven women and five men.
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