Growing up, I wanted to be a musician and to get into fashion.
It wasn’t till I was older that I wanted to get into broadcasting.
I was really shy, so shy my parents sent me to acting school, just to learn how to be outgoing because I was pretty uncomfortable to be around.
I hated acting school, loved it because it taught me to put myself out there more. But hated it because I just find acting really uncomfortable.
I have a lot of respect for people that can do that. I just remember feeling so anxious when everyone would be looking at me.
This exercise has stuck in my head all my life, you have to get up in front of the room and read a blank piece of paper, pretend it’s really bad news and react over the course of five minutes.
I hated doing that. Imagine how awkward that is. It’s like a car crash.
I’m still a shy person and inside will feel really embarrassed in front of people. But I have always hated being that way, I’ve always pushed that voice in my head to the back.
Fashion is my way of expressing myself and is my creative outlet. It also makes me feel really confident.
Even though I wear ‘bright fun mad’ clothes, if I see someone obviously talking about me in a shop, or pointing at me and laughing - literally happened yesterday - I get really sad and vulnerable.
But I just have to remind myself that I put on this outfit this morning and thought I looked whopper so I’m not going to let someone else make me feel shit about myself.
My earliest memory is of a huge thick chunky 90’s TV falling on my head when I was five and had to get stitches.
My dad was a lawyer, mum is a psychologist/chef. She and my dad owned a bar and restaurant that I grew up in.
But in terms of showbiz, they weren’t involved at all.
Finding a work life balance is a daily task because every single day is so different. I might not be starting work till late in the evening, or I might be working for 14 hours some days.
I do make sure to I take time to myself each day but I’d like to find more balance.
I’m very disciplined when it comes to work. I am a huge hustler and I think I have a strong work ethic.
I pride myself in being easy to work with, meeting deadlines and striving for more. However in personal life I’m probably not so disciplined.
I haven’t been to yoga in six months since I ‘started’ it. I put work before everything. I don’t think it’s in a toxic way, because I genuinely love everything that is ‘work’ for me.
The best advice I ever received was not to worry what people think of you…I have to remind myself daily of that one.
The trait I most admire in other people is respectfulness.
My main fault is money management. Maybe that’s because I was broke for so long. I don’t budget well.
My idea of happiness is having the comfort of a roof over my head and food in my belly.
If I could be reborn as someone else for a day I’d be Missy Elliott. Or Shania Twain. They have both had really tough lives. But I wish I wrote all their songs.
If money wasn’t an issue I would live in loads of different countries for a year at a time and DJ for really boujee parties.
My biggest challenge in life so far has been learning to love myself. And getting to where I am in my career.
My main skills are that I can play flute and saxophone and know five words of Indonesian.
There are a lot of things I didn’t learn in school, which I wish I had like how to do your tax, accounts, insurance, pension, savings, life admin.
And sex education. I didn’t learn any sex-related stuff in school.
My greatest fear is not having work.
I don’t think I believe in life after death.
So far life has taught me that it can be really overwhelming, and sometimes I have to remind myself that life is actually beautiful.
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